ABU BAKAR SIDDIQUE[1]
I can go on writing
I can go on writing only about me all through my life
This self-manuscript is an eternal epic.
One day like a crumpled cold-stricken sinful person
I knocked at the doors from one place to another.
Today many bowed-headed reptiles roam by
Frantically sniffing at my words.
I madly built up this eternal epic bit by bit
Diluting the marrows of my spine.
Everyday the archaic-person search down
The depth of sands with the cogs of dredgers.
All the approaching human beings
Grow up gradually encircling my trunk,
As the water column cling to the cloudy-structure of undying pain
This is but an unending narration of the epic;
Encircling so many days, so many lives, so many classical journey.
I Recreate Myself
I didn’t wanted to live a life of satisfaction in fools paradise
Didn’t wanted aristocratic favour with bowed head
My endless disqualification
For which I run after all through my life
Is a ghost without eyes-nose and teeth.
I grow up breaking down to pieces
But never do I bow down
I go on digging a life-long cave
There lies the life-force locked up.
It’s really hard.
Yet this is my war, my lifelong battle.
I’m living a life licking the salt
The alphabets are but poison-tablet
I recreate myself, a complex me,
All through the night, all through the life.
35
Verses of Life
What’s the use of listening to the story of half-done life?
Look here lies the crumpled imitation crown
Broken pieces of wooden sword are strewn there
The youthfulness has only gave me pique
The childish tender sensitiveness
The satanic thug has cunningly deceived me from the luck of
The responsibility and attainment of a mature lover.
He will not let me stand erect.
No exchange is now possible in concealed love-making.
From the sky my wings are torn apart
I too am turning down the autograph-seekers.
I too have my own sensitiveness.
I have given many interviews, that’ all. Here, take it.
I am returning back the afternoon award.
[1] Abu Bakar Siddique (b. 1934), first book of poems ‘Dhobol Dudher Swargram’ was published in 1969. Awards: Bangla Academy Award, 1988.